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The video and song is by Kevin Davidson . Kevin is a Volunteer Firefighter for Greenwich VFD in Kings County Nova Scotia. He is also a paid Paramedic for EHS in Nova Scotia.

What I did yesterday was a lot like "searching". Searching on or above the fire floor. Crawling on your belly in pitch black ... complete darkness... "Zero Visibility" (another link worth your click). Not knowing what lies ahead, where you're going or what you may encounter along the way. Reaching out trying to find something ... someone but also hoping you wont. What will we find? Life, death or something in between?

I can't describe the feeling in your gut as you're crawling down that dark, hot hallway. So dark that you can't see the lens of your face piece and so hot that your bottle is hot enough to heat the air you try to breath. I can't tell you why it is that we keep pushing / going but we do.

If we can not help ourselves.... our own members... the Brothers and Sisters riding beside us ... how can we be expected to help those we are sworn to serve and protect? Think about that for a minute.

At one point, I wasn't so sure I'd even make it. Now, I have hope.

I mentioned that I had returned to duty and that decision or "step" in my healing process was as huge and difficult as any of the others I've made.

I'm not sure I'd be here today if he hadn't. Rhett, and the process he sat in motion SAVED MY LIFE that day and I will be forever grateful!

It's up to us to bring those alternative options to the front! I'm still lost but you don't have to be. Our Brothers and Sisters don't have to be. Open your eyes! We should NOT be suffering due to an ignorance of Behavioral Health and Wellness.

"Take the Step" and help raise PTSD awareness.

If any of ya find me, please let me know or just take me home (of course I don't even know where "home" is anymore).